April 2, 2013

The Return of the Fat Girl

I'm back.  I've been on hiatus for over a year now.  What happened, you ask?  Well, I was doing fantastic on my lifestyle changes, and then my father came down for a week-long visit from Tennessee and we ATE. EVERYTHING. IN. SIGHT.  Seriously,  I ate a ton of food.  My dad is only able to visit Louisiana 3-4 times a year, so when he does he has to eat every southern food he loves: poboys, fried shrimp, fried oysters, raw oysters, gumbo, jambalaya, crawfish, etouffee, all of it.  Of course, what kind of hostess would I be if I didn't eat along with my guest? 

So, long story short, I spent a week eating nonstop, and then suddenly it was June and I had completely stopped my exercise routine, was eating fried food, fast food, bread (lots and lots of bread), pasta, etc.  It was pitiful.  I was able to distract myself from my failure, though, because I was headed to Europe for a study abroad trip in mid-June.  That trip was fantastic, and I'll tell y'all about it later just for fun.  When I got back it was only a few weeks until my 4-year-old started pre-k, so I was busy with that.  Then my fall semester started.  Then I had my 10-year high school reunion to help plan and pull off in October, then Thanksgiving, then Christmas, then Spring semester....

Needless to say, I've spent the last year successfully distracting myself from my re-expanding waistline.  I'm so disappointed to admit to you guys (and myself) that I have gained back 22 of the pounds that I lost.  All but 8 pounds.  What a wasted year, health-wise.  I've come back to my blog several times over the past two months, wanting to start writing again, but losing my nerve because I know you guys won't judge me, but I judge myself.  Oh yes, I judge myself.  Especially when I read over my old posts and see how motivated I was and how much progress I was making. 

However, my pity party is going to be a short one.  No time for that, right?  I've wasted one more year, and that stops now.  I am going to try this rodeo again, and hopefully I'll have the willpower and determination to stick with it this time.   I'm not sure if any of you guys have kept my blog on your lists, but hopefully you have and I'll be hearing from you.  I'll be checking to see if you guys are all still around as well. 

Here's to second (or twenty-fifth) chances. 

9 comments:

  1. Wow...almost the exact thing happened to me....and i, too abandoned my blog.

    Please consider me in this with you...i would be happy to begin the journey anew with you......

    Hugs, tracy

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  2. Well I'm in it with you both Bea and Tracy. I started my weightloss (and new life) journey last month, but got the flu last week and only now just starting to feel better. So we could say we're starting at the same time. Let me know if you'd like to keep each other motivated via our blogs.

    http://2cheekyturtles.blogspot.com.au/

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  3. Isn't it amazing/awful how just one small diversion from a structured weight loss lifestyle can derail the entire thing? I've experienced that so many times I've lost count. The important thing, I think, is to acknowledge the weight gain then move forward without dwelling on it as having to re-do weight loss that you've already accomplished. You're wiser now, and you can apply that wisdom moving forward. Try not to beat yourself up over it. Glad to have you back!!

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  4. Welcome back!
    Don't be too hard on yourself. I started last year with excellent intentions, right along with you, to lose weight. And I did at first. Before getting pregnant and gaining 60 freaking pounds. Surprisingly, Noelle didn't come out weighing 50 lbs. She wasn't even 7 pounds and I'm still lugging around an extra 45 lbs.

    Life. Amirite?

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  5. Welcome back. For real, what Simple Musings said. Things happen.
    Especially when po-boys are involved.

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  6. Welcome back.. I too, fell off the wagon and honestly, I have no intention of climbing back up. I've bought into the HEAS mentality and am learning to love my body. However, that being said, good luck with your efforts. In the meantime, the past year doesn't sound much like a waste.. Sounds like a blast!

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  7. Well I am glad you are back it was nice to see you over at my place/blog........as for falling off the wagon well years ago I fell off it and then it ran over me and I haven't been able to get back onto it.............lol

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  8. Welcome back!

    I too fell off the face of the earth. Just now getting my feet back on solid ground. And I abandoned the blog too! I guess I just needed some me time.

    Anyway, it's whatever. We'll take you anyway we can get you. Don't beat yourself up and don't call this a failure. Is it really a failure if I ate a huge heaping of Carl's Jr last night? No. I just fulfilling the craving. :-)

    We still love you!

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